I don't blame you for not understanding me.

 　　Everyone gets tired,

　　but we pretend to be .

　　Sometimes it's like having depression;

　　I suddenly feel down.

　　Occasionally, I feel like I have autism,

　　not wanting to talk or move.

　　When others ask, I don't know how to answer.

　　It's not feigned silence; I'm just powerless to express myself.

　　Perhaps everyone has a blind spot, a place they can't escape from,

　　and others can't enter.

　　I keep my deepest secrets there.

　　You don't understand me,

　　and I don't blame you.

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