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Liu Zhenkui, a table tennis enthusiast

   I met my fellow table tennis enthusiast, Liu Zhenkui, at Jubao Group. I went to Jubao Group to survey houses for issuing property certificates. Because Jubao Group has so many properties, it's impossible to survey them all in one day. Mr. Li from Jubao Group led me to the printing office to play table tennis and relax.   Entering the printing office, I saw people playing table tennis. Mr. Li explained, "This office also serves as a table tennis room. When we're working, we organize papers and bind documents on the table. When we play, we move the papers and documents to the table next to us to make room for table tennis." After saying this, Mr. Li stopped the two playing and introduced me to Liu Zhenkui, the chief accountant of Jubao Group, and Director Su of the printing office. They were table tennis enthusiasts and often played in this office/table tennis room.   Liu Zhenkui gave me his paddle, and I played table tennis with Director Su. After three games, I won...

Dialogue with the Soul

   Night deepens, only the gentle breeze caresses the curtains. I sit alone under the lamp, raising my weary eyes, searching for my soul.   — Prologue   Me: Soul, where are you? Can you hear my call?   Soul: I am here, I know you have come, but are you still?   Me: I am still, I can even hear my own heartbeat.   Soul: I can only exist in silence. In the clamor, you cannot see me; in the restlessness, you cannot see me either.   Me: I know, although I am very tired, my heart is at peace.   Soul: Listen, time is ticking away, slipping away little by little. Are you anxious?   Me: I am not anxious, but I am worried. Society is changing rapidly, I am afraid that if I slack off even slightly, I will fall behind the crowd.   Soul: The so-called falling behind is just your feeling. In the bustling sea of ​​people, who are you comparing yourself to? Are you comparing yourself to those in front, behind, to your left, or to your right? In fact, life has many longitudes and latitudes, the key...

Love conveyed in its final moments

   Love is a fleeting dream in this mortal world, a lonely season in the passing years. Who is longing, who will be lonely? Missing a gentle farewell, life is without fate, only tears of waiting for life, wiping away the only sorrow, missing the gentle scenery, love is a kind of youth, and also a kind of sadness, just a mistake in life, just a hopeless wait, a farewell, a tear of love, wiping away the only mistake, wiping away the last love.   The loneliness of a broken life, betraying the farewell of life, just that mistake, missing the indifference of the sea of ​​people, love is like a storm, the frequency of longing in life, the final betrayal without fate, the final withering, the mistake of being without fate, missing the farewell of life, just a hopeless longing, just a mistake of being without fate, missing the waiting in the sea of ​​people, waiting for a lifetime of sorrow, it is missing, it is also being without fate in life.   The waiting after parting, a lifetime of lo...

Don't mistake lingering feelings for love.

   Some people, even though you've said goodbye to them countless times in your heart, and your expectations for love have died, you still choose to cling to each other for temporary comfort, only to accumulate sorrow over time. Perhaps people are inherently afraid of loneliness, so as long as the relationship hasn't completely broken down, they can still make do by feeding each other to mask the loneliness that will only intensify temporarily.   Some people have loved for so long, heard so much, only to finally realize that what they gained wasn't love, but someone even more afraid of loneliness than themselves, someone whose gaze was misinterpreted as deep affection. Thus, their headstrong passion became a mere source of warmth. The ice and snow melt, spring is buried beneath the thick layer of fallen leaves, and who can truly remember the starlight that illuminates the night sky? Only when the sun shines brightly and dawn breaks will true light arrive, and only then will...

The most enduring confession

   Regarding showing off happiness, some people online say that you only show it off if you're not happy enough, or if you're not loving enough. But I think you only have something to show off if you're truly happy, and you only have something to show off if you're truly in love. If you were that happy, could you control the overwhelming surge of happiness that comes with it?   There's a kind of love that, when they show it off, warms your heart.   Today, while on the bus, an elderly couple got on at one stop. Just from their boarding habits, you could tell they were a couple whose hair was graying but who still cared for each other deeply.   "Let me help you, you go first," the old man said in a gentle yet slightly commanding tone. After the old woman got on, she immediately turned around and helped the old man.   When my friend and I got up to offer our seats, the old man said, "Thank you, but you don't need two seats, one is fine." We were...

A dreamlike first love

   They were neighbors in the village, practically related. It was the mid-1980s, the time when the household responsibility system had just been implemented. Their two families, along with two others, formed a group and were allocated a cow by the production team to cultivate the land together. After school or on weekends, they often helped their parents with farm work, so they had a lot of contact.   At that time, he was fourteen, and she was fifteen, a year older. They were both attending junior high school in a neighboring village, and their parents arranged for them to go to morning and evening self-study sessions together, looking after each other. Both were in their teens, innocent and carefree, childhood sweethearts, and naturally, a special feeling developed between them. They always liked to be together, going to the river to see the willows, and talking by the haystacks in the wheat field under the moonlight.   His family had already built him a three-room brick house, p...

We shared the same window and the same bed.

   That day, I had dinner with a high school classmate I hadn't seen in a long time. We talked about relationships, and she said, "Why   is it always women who get hurt?" Sometimes I wonder too, when two people love each other, why is it often the woman who ends up heartbroken? My classmate is preparing for graduate school entrance exams. The world of intellectuals is always so "high and mighty." She studies for over 13 hours a day on her own. Seeing her like this, I can't help but admire her perseverance. She's never been in a relationship, never met the right person, and says she'll only love one person in her life. Then I look at myself, wounded and scarred by love.   My relationship with Zhang can be described as revolutionary love. From high school to university graduation, neither of us chose to pursue further studies at a higher institution. We tacitly entered the workforce together. Three years of long-distance relationship, and because of lo...

This is where I swim every day.

   When I worked in the Communist Youth League, I organized annual training courses for branch secretaries in other cities, including Yixian, Huludao, Xingcheng, Shanhaiguan, Beidaihe, Tangshan, Dandong, and Beijing. One year, while swimming with the Youth League cadres at Wanghaisi Beach in Huludao, I told them, "When I retire, I'll definitely buy a house by the Wanghaisi beach so I can swim every day."   After Jinzhou got a swimming pool, I cycled more than ten miles every night to the Petrochemical Swimming Pool. In 2003, I joined the Winter Swimming Association and discovered that I could swim in natural waters every day in Jinzhou. In 2010, my wife visited almost every housing development in Jinzhou and finally decided to buy a high-rise apartment near Donghu Park by the Xiaoling River. She told me, "This is also to make it easier for you to swim in East Lake."   East Lake in Jinzhou is where Jinzhou's winter swimmers go every day. Now, it boasts newly ...

meet

 I've forgotten when I first came here, only remembering how happy I was. At first, I just wanted a place to record my feelings, and among a bunch of apps, I found this one—a text-based website. Simple, just words, yet it instantly made my heart joyful. I downloaded the app and entered; it truly made me feel warm. I love the words here, I love silently looking at the mood wall, I love encouraging myself, I love recording my joys and sorrows, and I love the comforting words from strangers. I understand that sadness and happiness are always happening in this world, and meeting them here is a unique kind of fate. Looking at someone's words, imagining their beauty, is truly blissful. Even after changing my phone, I can't bear to leave this app; no matter how many things I uninstall, this haven remains. Here, there are dark moods, frustrated pasts, and also happy lives; beautiful words, warm and bright—that's probably… its charm. From its earliest version to now, it remains ...

Fleeting time—cold and indifferent

   Memories slip away like sand through my fingers, a torrential downpour obliterating the past. Are you alright?   We promised to grow old together, how could you bear to lose me? In our youth, we were oblivious to heartbreak; we were never meant to be, yet our shadows clung to each other. I still remember that night, the moonlight pouring down, starlight flowing through your hair, you smiling as you drank wine and admired the flowers. In that instant, memory forgot to breathe, even the evening breeze blushed. I looked directly into your eyes, which seemed to hold the shimmering light of the world, and time stood still. We met like that in the fleeting years, our youthful days brief yet beautiful.   Unconsciously, tears filled my eyes, and with a wave of my hand, I realized it was all a dream—warm love, sorrow, and a chilling realization. The memories we cherish are fleeting, a beautiful intersection, but who wants it to end in heartbreak? Promises become wounds, and the years of ...

Youth, a charming scene in March.

   Strolling slowly in the spring sunshine of March, stopping and starting, watching the flowers bloom beautifully, watching the spring rain gently fall, feeling the spring breeze on my face—spring is the fleeting years of youth. Youth is the most beautiful scenery in life. Youth is an encounter with blooming flowers; youth is a journey of pain and joy; youth is a fierce competition; youth is a time of striving for glory; youth is a time of romantic moments.   How sweet are the memories of youth; how beautiful are the years of youth; how vibrant are the fleeting years of youth. In youth, we move towards our dreams. We have fallen, we have been sad, we have been happy, we have been in pain, we have been lonely, we have been hesitant, we have been confused. Always, we wander in the long years; always, we grow in the spring-like life; always, we appreciate the beauty and rhythm of the four seasons of life in the changing seasons; always, we experience the beauty and helplessness of yo...

Welcome Spring and Blessings

   Time flies like water, coming and going in a hurry. Look, in the blink of an eye, it has joyfully arrived at the Spring Festival of 2018.   Thinking of it brings warmth; silence speaks volumes. Perhaps, in just this fleeting moment, time has passed, winter has deepened, and the Spring Festival has come again. The brightly colored couplets, the steaming reunion dinner, the crackling of firecrackers, the fragrant dumplings, and our shy little secrets… have already filled the pages of this New Year's happiness during these waiting days, overflowing with heartwarming smiles and blessings.   There is a sentiment that nourishes the years; there is a longing that warms the world. Exquisite moments, tranquil years. The heart always needs a harbor to rest. During the Spring Festival, we once again rediscover ourselves, encountering the story of a city and time. Perhaps, or perhaps, in this vast sea of ​​people, we are all wanderers, always waiting for our way home. No one can be sure whi...

You must love something.

   Life must have something to love; only then will living have meaning.   This world unfolds different wonders every day, with its share of joys and sorrows. We encounter beauty in this journey of life, only to return to silence in the next season's farewell.   The helplessness in life may be the imperfections bestowed upon us by fate. The moon waxes and wanes, people experience joy and sorrow, everyone has their temper, but inner peace and tranquility are a product of one's own heart and cultivation.   If time treats me harshly, I will treat myself gently; if life gives me sunshine, why should I treat others coldly? Time will not take everything away, because love can still provide warmth.   I always feel that only when one's heart is filled with love and strength can one face the storms of life without fear.   In truth, we come into this world not to witness the wickedness of humanity, nor to get entangled in right and wrong. Life is not easy; we must cultivate ourselves...

Half a lifetime of wandering, and then I met you.

   Life's fleeting years are always consumed in the journey. In God's eyes, the magnificent scenery along the way is beautiful because of youth, the choice to travel far, and the encounters that make it all so. Half a lifetime has been spent, yet I just happened to meet you.   Spring waters are just beginning to rise, spring forests are just beginning to flourish, spring breezes are blowing for miles, spring flowers are blooming everywhere, but none of these compare to you. So, having drifted all the way from the source of the Xinjiang River, I have stopped here. And so, a restless heart finds the road to the distance growing shorter and shorter, life seems to have a center, and the distance between you and me has become the radius, this circle locking in my sphere of activity.   That year, we went to see the sea together, our footprints side by side on the beach, our shadows stretched long in the sunset, our playful antics on the beach, the tranquil night sky, the stars like w...

Fallen flowers yearn for you

   A wisp of wind rises, shaking down the branches laden with longing. You stand beneath the tree, your eyes radiant with a gentle spring breeze. And so, a ray of light falls, and you turn to ash with it.   --- Prologue   You are the true words in the Buddhist scriptures as the prayer wheel turns; you are the only true love in Loulan City; you are the man with the folding fan beneath the tree amidst falling blossoms when the wind rises; you are the haunting figure I cannot escape in my dreams, and also a splash of red in that picturesque landscape.   I remember our first meeting, you were still dressed in white, your every move graceful and elegant, brimming with talent. The folding fan accentuated your refined and elegant demeanor, but what truly captivated me was your smile, as gentle as a spring breeze.   Yes, when you smile, spring arrives, the snow melts, and the flowers bloom.   After that, I stayed by your side.   You said, "What is the meaning of life? Better to plant ten ...

You never know whether tomorrow or an accident will come first.

 Hearing this news suddenly was very sad. We never know which will come first, tomorrow or an accident. My WeChat Moments is flooded with posts about you. I'm silently praying for you, hoping you're doing well in heaven. I've watched that video repeatedly, and I still can't believe it's you. We've known each other for seven or eight years, though we met on Tieba ( a Chinese online forum). You've always been a very reliable friend. In our memories, you've always been a good person. In everyone's hearts, you've always been a wonderful young man— warm-hearted, kind, optimistic, and humorous . You always did your best to help friends in need, and you always participated in volunteer activities on Tieba. But in the blink of an eye, it's all become the past that can never be returned to. Everything is gone, leaving only memories. X, may you rest in peace . Whenever I encounter these things, I always feel a pang of sadness , lamenting the fragility ...